Tonight I will unapologetically drink red wine

Tonight, I will unapologetically, drink red wine,
I will drink until it has become unfashionable and I have become one of those girls’ I never wanted to be, with red teeth, big hips and round thighs.
Tonight I will not fret about the work left undone on my desk or how I will impossibly finish it before deadline tomorrow.
Tonight I will toast the fact that I made it—to Thursday.
Tonight I will watch trashy tv and not relive the hardships I’ve faced.
I will drink until I don’t remember the other commitments to charities and groups and varsity staff I preemptively made.
Tonight, I will not be the girl in an entry-level position and a smile on my face.
I will not be the girl that tries to give it her all
I will not be the girl that tries to attend 6am kickboxing class or that thinks about how long it has been since her last date.
I will not recall, plan or dwell on my dreams and aspirations.
For tonight, I will unapologetically, drink red wine.